I Don’t Care

I Don’t Care 

I sit. 
And I watch you. 
You dance in colors that aren’t yours,
A queen in paper armor, 
A prophet of mirrors who fears reflection. 

You laugh loud. 
Louder than truth. 
You wear pride like a coat with the sleeves too short, 
Talking about wisdom you never heard, 
Pointing at horizons you’ve never chased. 
The ground shifts beneath your feet, 
But you don’t feel it. 

And I,
I don’t care. 

You build kingdoms with sand, 
Palaces of opinions stacked like cards. 
The wind speaks warnings in whispers, 
But you never learned to listen to silence. 
So go ahead, 
Stack your stones, 
Yell into the wind. 
I’m not holding the wall when it falls. 

You ask for counsel, 
But only to hear your own thoughts. 
You want change, 
As long as it looks just like you. 
There are cracks in the glass you refuse to see,
A compass that spins and never lands north. 
You follow it anyway. 
I watch. 
I stay still. 
I don’t care. 

What kind of human walks without leaving footprints, 
Shouting justice but stumbling over truth? 
You brandish swords forged from hollow words, 
Slicing wounds in places no one else sees. 
You call it bravery. 
I call it noise. 

Let me be clear,
I don’t care. 
Your storm is yours to drown in, 
Your sea to sink or swim. 
I have my own shores to walk, 
My own sun to chase. 
I’ll breathe air that’s free of your thunder, 
And find my calm beneath skies you can’t reach. 

You tell me to climb your glass mountain, 
But I see through it, 
Thin as pride, 
Fragile as ego. 
I’ll stand at the bottom and watch it shatter. 
You’ll bleed. 
I won’t. 

This is not lethargy,
It’s freedom. 
I won’t wear your chains of validation, 
Won’t dance to the beats of your demands. 
Let the tide rise, 
Let your words fall like rain on someone else’s skin. 

I’ll walk. 
I’ll breathe. 
I’ll write my own name into the wind, 
And let the song belong to me. 

So live your truth,
Call it gospel, 
Call it fire. 
Build your temples, 
Shout your sermons. 
But don’t ask me to kneel. 

The world is vast, 
Full of roads I haven’t walked, 
Of songs I haven’t sung. 
And I will walk them, 
I will sing. 
Unbound. 
Unmoved. 
Unapologetically free. 

I don’t care. 
Not out of spite, 
Not out of scorn, 
But because I refuse,
To be a prisoner of someone else’s storm. 

This is where I leave you. 
Keep your crown. 
I’ll keep my soul. 

@okelododdychitchats

Lady in Black


Mimi ni wa kucum, oh, scrap that, my bad, I meant Mimi ni wa kucome.’”
I was raised in the village. Well, not really a village because Rongo qualifies as a town, but Nairobians will still call it Moshadha, or ushago, or something else altogether. Forget it. 
I grew up in Rongo for most of my childhood and only moved to Nairobi for campus. That’s right, I went to Multimedia University of Kenya in Karen, Nairobi County. Before anyone comes at me with, “Multimedia iko Rongai, bro,” before we argue, check your maps! The lower fence of Multimedia separates Nairobi from Rongai in Kajiado County. So yes, I schooled in Karen and stayed in Karen for four years. Si ni Mimi nawashow.

I bring up this whole kukucome thingie because when I first got into the Nairobi scene, matatu touts kept shouting “Tao Amboseli,” I didn’t catch it right, so I genuinely thought every estate in Nairobi had an Amboseli, just like almost every hood has a Kwa Chief in it. Turns out, they were saying “Tao hamusini,” as in, fare to town was 50 bob from wherever the pickup point was. Today, I’m in one of the moderately pimped Mapepe mats of Utimo Sacco. It’s carrying Tao Hamusini from Umoja Jeska stage. It’s Almost full. People love it because the driver here, knows how to dodge traffic….I’m sitting in the back, on the left window seat, giving me a clear view of everyone getting in, and, of course, judging them. Before I’m done profiling my fellow passengers, a lady slides in beside me. She’s today’s topic. This is udaku for free, feel free to share it with your crew. I hear y’all love udaku, so buckle up.


She’s in a sleek black dress, paired with not-so-new maroon Nike TNs, probably Kamukunji stock, judging by the soles, which haven’t been worn down by exposure to air (yes, I noticed the shoes when she stepped in, don’t ask). Her makeup is flawless, compensating for her questionable style. Thick lenses with frames hugging her round face sit perfectly on her. 
Her eyes? Twin pools of wonder and mystery, they speak in whispers, framed by lashes as soft as a lover’s caress. 
Her lips? Succulent and juicy. 
Her nose? Perfectly symmetrical. 
Her face is a masterpiece on a perfectly sculpted body. 
Her hips don’t lie. When she sits, our hips meet, and I feel something, a desire mixed with comfort and curiosity mingling with hunger. Unsettling and oddly familiar.

I don’t know her name, but I know she smells nice, her dreadlocks are freshly done, clean, and not a hint of dusty brown in sight. 
The bus starts moving, and she turns to me. 
“You look good,” she says. 
So do you, I think. 
“You smell nice,” she adds. 
So do you, I think again. 
Match made in heaven, I convince myself, until she starts talking. And talking. And talking. A relentless stream of words. This river has no banks. Suddenly, I’m not so sure. I reconsider my initial instincts about asking for her name or number. 

She pulls out a Juicy Fruit from her Gussii bag (yes, that’s what it says, probably meant to say Gucci). The way she chews it… carefree, wild, tasting life with abandon. It’s unbothered. It’s maddening….

We are in Town now,

When we reach past Mfangano Street, she turns. 
“What’s your name?” 
I tell her. 
She smiles and walks away, heading toward Luthuli Avenue. 

I watch her walk. That dhudha (that’s ass in some local sheng language.) That graceful stride. That hypnotic sway. 
And for a fleeting moment, I wonder if I could’ve traded all that talking and careless chewing for the simple joy of watching her disappear into the crowd…

I almost get knocked down by a bike. As I snap back to reality, I realize it’s partly my fault. This part of town is always packed with people and matatus. When you mix those two, it feels like the sum of mchanga wa bahari, a bit of an exaggeration, but downtown Nairobi CBD is always a madhouse. I apologize to the boda guy and keep walking toward Nyayo House, with the lady in black still on my mind… I’ll tell you this, if you meet someone in a matatu or anywhere else who catches your interest, don’t wait around. Go for it. Take the risk! The guilt of not trying is way worse than whatever the outcome might be. I wish I’d gotten her number, even if it ended up on that list of contacts I don’t talk to. At least I’d have it, and what I choose to do with it is on me.

All day, I can’t stop thinking about the lady in black. She’s in my thoughts, even in the words I’m about to say. I try to dodge the usual chaos of the crowded streets, so I take a detour towards Kencom, then City Hall. It’s quieter here, with less hustle, and the buildings are lined up neatly, giving off this calm vibe. It’s the kind of peace that lets me think about the lady in black without anything pulling my attention away.

As I get closer to Nyayo House, I notice the street next to Cardinal Otunga and Holy Basilica is lined with Kienyeji ladies, each with an eye on the crowd. They’re advertising cyber services, not with signs, but with their words “bro, cyber, printing…” They’re looking for people who might need a printout or scan before heading into Nyayo House. Their smiles say they’ve seen it all, and they walk with the kind of confidence only Nairobi’s hustle can teach.

I don’t need any cyber services today, so I head straight to the NEMA offices to meet the Nairobi County Coordinator. Her office is warm and welcoming, and one day, I’ll ask her for an interview. But today, I’m here for something else.

Catch you later, guys!

@okelododdychitchats

I Remember

I Remember This 

I remember that day like it was yesterday,
When time just… stopped. 
Everything felt heavy, like carrying sacks of maize on my back,
And your words, they hit me,  
Soft but sharp, cutting through the quiet. 
It was the 31st. 
That date? It stayed with me,
Stuck in my chest like a thorn. 
It made me thirsty, not for water,
But for answers, for understanding,
For some kind of meaning that never came. 

We walked, remember? 
Under those jacaranda trees,
Purple petals falling like tiny blessings
Or maybe tears we couldn’t cry. 
The wind? It whispered secrets,   
Or maybe I imagined that too. 
Everything about that moment was a blur,
But your voice? 
Your voice was clear,
Soft, steady,
Like a song from long ago. 

You told me about her,
And I felt it. 
Every. Single. Word. 
Like the weight of rain-soaked clothes
Clinging to my skin. 
I whispered a prayer that day,
Not because I knew what to say,
But because silence felt heavier than speaking. 
“God, please… please guide her home. 
Hold her close. Let her rest.” 

Ooh, Yesu Kristo! 
My heart,
It broke wide open,
And your name slipped from my lips
Along with tears I didn’t even realize were falling. 
Grief, they say, is the price of love,
And we,
We paid in full that day. 
Every tear,
Every ache,
Every silent scream. 

Loss sits in your chest,
Heavy like a stone you can’t put down. 
But even stones wear smooth over time. 
Grace,
That’s what you taught me,
Grace shapes us, 
Even when we’re broken. 

May her soul find peace,
That kind of deep, deep peace 
That feels like warm sun on tired shoulders, 
Like a calm lake at dusk. 
And I’ll carry her, 
Her memory, 
Her laughter, 
Her love,
Because love doesn’t die. 
It just… changes. 
It becomes wind, 
And light, 
And breath. 

Osiepa, 
You’re still here,  In the stories we tell,  In the way we laugh even when it hurts,  In the quiet moments  When memories sit with us
Like a fire we gather around for warmth.

I remember. 
And I always will. 

@okelododdychitchats

People Still Wear Safari Boots



I’m in a Latema Travels bus, heading to the village, not Kikuyu or Dumboini. It’s a new bus, charging Ksh. 1,600. At least I’m not paying Ksh. 2,500 to board those cramped 10-seater minivans driven with reckless abandon! There are hardly any vehicles heading to Nyanza or Western,  they’re either full or charging outrageously high fares. This Latema bus, playing bongo is a hot cake! 

The bus is almost full, and the fare collector, a broker called Ongeri, is everywhere, moving up and down the aisle. He’s wearing an old orange Transline reflector jacket, paired with faded navy-blue trousers and a collared t-shirt with frayed edges. His safari boots have seen better days. Ongeri, though loud, isn’t annoying, his humor keeps things light. 

In less than an hour, the bus fills up, but not without drama. We’re parked at Oilibya along Moi Avenue, just past Afya Center and opposite Picasso Restaurant. The commotion is between touts and Kanjo (County Council officers, the Zakayos of our time). Like the police, they extort money from struggling citizens. There’s an argument about unpaid dues, but before I can figure out the details, we finally leave the bus stop. 

As we head toward KPCU (I don’t know what that stands for, but it’s Ena Coach’s home ground), Ongeri and the official bus tout are at odds. Ongeri notices an empty seat and insists the tout go back to fetch another passenger. Oddly enough, the tout complies, leaving us waiting at the Total petrol station near Pastor Nga’nga’s Neno Evangelism Center. The driver and Ongeri engage in a loud, heated math session, calculating their profits while the rest of us grumble about the delay-it’s already 2 PM, and a seven-hour journey awaits. 

Eventually, the tout returns with a lady passenger, and we’re finally on our way. Ongeri heads back to Oilibya or whatever. 

Now, we’re past Suswa, somewhere between wheat plantations. The bus is playing Arbantone, Sean MMG, Lil Maina, Danski, and YBW Smith’s “Now You Know.” My mood would be better if the legroom weren’t so tight- my long legs are cramping in this confined space. 

Next to me is my cousin Jack. On the other side, there’s a UON student, he’s taking biochemistry. I didn’t catch his name, but he mentioned he’s from Sori, Karungu. He’s with his cousin, Eddy Moses, a structural engineer who went to Ringa High School and TUK. Eddy is one of those guys who make sure you know they’re engineers. Cocky but still decent company.

The vaibu in this bus is something else. There’s a guy called Kasongo (yes, that’s his actual ID name). He’s from Nyamarambe, near Riosiri Market, the border between Rongo and Kisii Highlands. Kasongo is Gen X, infact he studied during the colonial period, but he’s cool enough to keep up with the younger crowd. He’s referring to us as Gen Si. He has an accent and his “Z” falls in the place of “S.”

At 4:22 p.m., we stop for food. Kasongo and the Sori cousins go straight to the egg vendor, get kugongewa mbili, and then melt away into a liquor store. When we get back on the bus, it’s proper mavaibu, it’s now a full-on party. People are talking, laughing, and doing whatever. Vybz Kartel’s “Don’t Follow Me Like Jesus,” is playing, and I think, did he curse himself with that line? He still has fans, yes, but not as many people are following him like Jesus.

The party energy carries us all the way to Kisii. By the time we get there, the rain has started, and the bus quietens down. The journey is over, and everyone’s mood sobers.

We walk through the drizzle and I think back on the trip, It was a crazy one, in the best way. Kasongo, Eddy, and his cousin made the ride memorable, like free entertainment you didn’t ask for but enjoyed anyway. Then I spot Pastor Ezekiel’s billboard and think to myself, How much does this guy spend on these things? PLO Lumumba was right, Jesus is a money making Industry.

And Ongeri’s safari boots? Kwani people still wear safari boots these days?

@okelododdychitchats 

Behind the Walls

In this city’s very soul, behind its walls
There’s a hidden place, where poverty does not pass by.
A settlement, with huts made of tin,
The streets are littered, and the air is thin.

Here, order is but a dream,
Children roam the streets, with nowhere to be seen.
Their playgrounds are filled with rubbish and waste,
Their homes are cramped, with no sense of taste.

The stuffed room they call home, with everything thrown everywhere,
Is a sight to behold, a scene of despair.
Toys lie scattered, amidst piles of clothes,
While the stench of decay, through the air it flows.

How safe is that stuffed room, for your kids to play?
With sharp objects hidden, amidst the disarray.
Their fragile bodies, at risk of harm,
In a space so cluttered, with no sense of charm.

The stairs that lead to their home, littered with waste,
Is a danger waiting, a disaster in haste.
Broken bottles and debris, scattered all around,
A trip and fall, a loud crashing sound.

How healthy is that stairs, for their little feet to tread?
With filth and grime, underneath their thread.
Their tiny lungs, breathing in the dust,
Their innocence tainted, by the lack of trust.

The balcony they call theirs, a space so small,
Is a makeshift playground, with no safety at all.
A rickety railing, a crumbling ledge,
A fall from above, towards the edge.

How safe is that balcony, for them to roam and play?
With no barriers to keep them away.
Their laughter silenced, by the fear of a fall,
Their joy overshadowed, by the looming wall.

Must poverty be associated, with being dirty and unclean?
With no sense of pride, in the space they call serene.
But why must their world, be suffocated by filth?
Why must their homes, be devoid of wealth?

We have good roads, and some drainages too,
Yet the filth persists, amidst the view.
Why must we throw litter, everywhere we go?
Why must we live in filth, and not let it show?

Their parents work hard, to put food on the table,
But cleanliness is lacking, in a world unstable.
They want their kids to enjoy, a good environment too,
But the odds are against them, in a world askew.

So let us not judge, the ones in poverty’s grasp,
For their struggle is real, a never-ending task.
Let us lend a helping hand, to clean the streets,
To make their world cleaner, with no defeat.

For every child deserves, a safe and healthy space,
To grow and learn, in a world of grace.
Let us make a difference, in their lives today,
For a cleaner tomorrow, in every way.

@okelododdychitchats

Tukutendereza Yesu

State House Road smells fresh, like the air has been scrubbed clean. The rain came down hard, soaking everything in sight, and now I’m walking past YMCA Central, taking it all in. Two holes sit dangerously by the roadside, barely covered with small tree branches – useless at stopping anything from falling in.

It’s still drizzling, but the world feels different. The water in the trenches flows peacefully, no trash clogging it up. The road is strangely clean, almost surreal, but the traffic toward University Way is as crazy as ever. Amid the noise, I can hear people singing. The voices are gentle, calming, carrying the unmistakable melody of an SDA hymn. “Blessed Assurance, Jesus is Mine” floats around me, a song I know will stay in my head long after it fades-just like “Tukutendereza Yesu” always does.

The drizzle is cool against my skin, I can feel gentle drops of water kissing it. It’s almost refreshing, but I’m freezing. I thought I was smart leaving my jacket at home, it would have ruined my look, but now I’m regretting it. Style is one thing, warmth is another. Today, “freeze and shine” is a reality. Style will kill me !

When I get to the bus stop, what we call Stage here in Kenya, I’m lucky enough to find a matatu right away. I climb in and grab a seat at the back, but there’s a random remote sitting there. For a second, I wonder if that’s why the seat was empty. Maybe it belongs to the woman next to me? Turns out, it’s the matatu’s remote. I pick it up, planning to hand it to the makanga when he comes for the fare. 

Finally, I’m warm again, but I’m so tired. My mind feels heavy, and I just want to get home. Looking out the window, I remember it’s Christmas season. But, something feels off. The streets are still crowded, kwani watu hawajaenda ushago hii Christmas!  The shops aren’t decorated like they usually are for Christmas, nothing like the usual festive look we’re used to – no green, no gold, no red. The waiters, shop and supermarket attendants aren’t wearing those red and white Santa hats. Has Christmas lost its magic, or is it just me?

We reach my stage (yes, that’s the bus stop again), and I step out. The drizzle hasn’t let up, and it’s still cold. I pull my scarf tighter and rush home, I just want to escape this cold. 

That’s all for now. Stay warm out there!

Wait a minute, “makanga” is tout. As I warm up at home, I’m going to play “Tukutendereza Yesu!” It always reminds me of my dad, and I love it just as much as I love my dad.

Adios !

@okelododdychitchats

Golden Hue

My skin drips cocoa butter, 
rich and unparalleled, 
like the earth holding stories of rain and sun, 
like a promise whispered by the night. 
It’s dark and beautiful, 
mysterious as a velvet sky laced with stars, 
It tells a story of history. 

It doesn’t glare or dull,
it balances like a seashell 
cupped by moonlight, 
a perfection gleaming in the sun, 
catching light like a secret revealed. 
This is my skin, 
a story of generations, 
a mark of resilience passed down with pride. 

Its scent is Yara cologne, 
layered and lingering, 
a melody made tangible, 
a fragrance infused with culture, 
with memory, with home. 
Every breath of it recalls 
the places, the hands, the voices 
that shaped me. 

Above it rests a crown, 
soft coils and curls that stretch toward the sky. 
Hair that defies gravity yet welcomes touch, 
a crown sculpted by no one but me, 
alive in its strength, its freedom, 
a hymn of self-love in every strand. 

This essence of me,
is seen and felt
it’s carried, 
it’s lived. 
Every inch speaks 
in a language only I can translate, 
a declaration of identity, 
a love letter to the self. 

So let my skin drip cocoa butter, 
let it shine unapologetically. 
Let it sing of power and joy, 
of beauty that doesn’t ask for permission. 
This darkness isn’t a void, it’s fullness, 
it’s richness, it’s light wrapped in shadow. 

Let it carry the rhythm of culture, 
the heartbeat of diversity. 
In its depth is strength, 
in its texture, truth. 
It doesn’t hide, 
it never will. 
My skin drips cocoa butter, 
and in it lies the whole world.

@okelododdychitchats

The Burden of Being

They say men drag themselves to hell,
As if each step they take is a burden,
As if the weight of their struggles,
Their pride, their pain,
Should remain hidden,
Silent, unspoken.
And when a man is wronged,
When his dignity is stripped away,
When his worth is questioned,
They turn away,
As if it’s his fight to bear alone.
No one speaks up, no one defends,
He’s left to pick up the pieces,
His bruises ignored.

Have you ever seen
What happens when a man’s life is taken?
How the story shifts,
How the reason for his death is twisted,
Explained away,
As if it’s somehow justifiable,
As if it’s easier to accept
If the pain can be rationalized,
If the wrong can be painted in a different light.
The truth is bent,
The facts contorted,
Until the sharp edges of injustice
Are softened, made palatable.

Why is it only wrong when it doesn’t fit the narrative?
When a man’s struggle doesn’t meet the approval of those who’ve never walked in his shoes?
When the pain doesn’t match their prescription of how things should be,
Why do they bend and twist the story to make it easier to understand?
Why is it that the wrongs done to a man are shrugged off,
Ignored, forgotten,
Until they can no longer be ignored?
Is it because they expect him to endure quietly?
To accept disrespect as part of his place in the world?

Why must we turn a blind eye when a man is dismissed,
When he’s disrespected,
When his value is diminished,
As if he doesn’t deserve the same empathy,
The same respect,
The same justice?
Why do we question his pain,
His frustration,
When he’s left standing alone,
Fighting battles that no one else sees?
Is it because he’s a man,
And somehow, his hurt is less?
Somehow, he’s expected to rise without the help of others?

It’s a sad, painful truth that we live in a world
Where some lives are weighed differently,
Where some struggles are minimized,
Where the wrongs done to men are excused,
Simply because they’re men.
But when will we see that pain is pain,
That disrespect is still wrong,
That when a man’s dignity is stolen,
When he’s pushed down,
When he’s wronged,
It’s just as heavy, just as real
As the wrongs done to anyone else?

I won’t stand for it.
I won’t accept it.
I believe we can do better.
I believe we can rise beyond these broken rules,
Beyond these silent expectations,
And see each other for what we truly are,
Human.
Every one of us, deserving of dignity,
Deserving of respect.
And maybe, just maybe,
When we stop justifying wrongs,
When we stop twisting the truth,
We can heal, together.
Men, women, everyone,
Equal in our worth,
Equal in our struggle,
And equal in our right to be seen,
To be heard, to rise.

@okelododdychitchats

Pieces of Me

I’m not stubborn about most things. 
I want to change, I really do, but not everything. 
There are pieces of me I just can’t let go of,
Like my accent, which always feels like home.
Or my style, which speaks for me without a word.
And my team, Manchester Red, through the wins, the losses, and the heartbreaks. I stick!
Those are pieces of me I’ll never trade. 

But some things? I’ll leave behind. 
I’ll swap the bars for church,
Trade the noise for peace, 
Let my spirit find rest in quieter places. 
I’ll keep my screen time, I’m not ready to fight that battle,
But I’ll change what I’m watching. 
No more wanking to strangers’ explicit tapes.
No more moments that leave me feeling emptier than before. 
Instead, I’ll open a Bible. 
Not promising to be holy, 
But I’ll seek meaning in verses rather than fleeting thrills. 

And that muscle, that restless, familiar muscle?
It’s time I show it some respect.
But you better behave too.

 I sit, thinking about what stays and what goes. 
The pieces of me that make me who I am,
my voice, my name, my roots,
those will always be mine. 
But I’m ready to grow. 
Not all at once, but slowly,
Like a tide reshaping the shoreline,
like a man learning to carry himself differently. 

I’m not stubborn,   
I’m just figuring it out. 
Step by step, choice by choice,
trying to become someone better
without losing the parts of me that matter most.

….. And to you all , this isn’t a series of “we listen but we don’t judge.”

@okelododdychitchats

Wacha Ikae

Don’t look at your phone. The urge is there, gnawing at you, but you resist. You know how it happens always. She hasn’t called. She hasn’t left a message either, not even a one-word reply to that carefully written text you sent. But she’s read it. The double blue ticks glare back at you like tiny daggers, taunting you with their silence. 

You tell yourself it’s nothing. Maybe she’s busy. Maybe her phone died. Yet deep down, a faint warning whispers, something is off. The red flags you once ignored are now bold and unrelenting, waving in your face. But no, this isn’t even orange yet, you rationalize. She’ll call later. She always does, and when she does, there will be excuses. So many excuses. Weak and hollow, they tumble out like rehearsed lines in a bad play. 

You’ve heard them all before. “I was caught up with something.” “I didn’t see your call.” “You’re overthinking it.” And yet, every excuse chips away at something inside you. Still, you stay. You try to trust, to believe. But the lateness, the nonchalance, the dismissive tone, they sting. When the responses come, they’re lukewarm at best, indifferent at worst. And when they don’t come at all, you’re left to sit with your thoughts, drowning in a pool of “what-ifs.” 

And when you dare to question it? The tables turn. She doesn’t apologize or explain. No, she gets angry. She calls it “female empowerment” or “girls in male fields,”  her right to do as she pleases. But somehow, your feelings don’t matter. Your concerns are labeled as misogyny, your hurt as bias. Her anger flares, fiery and unrelenting, until you’re forced into silence, swallowing your words like bitter pills. 

It’s funny, though, how the rules seem different when the tables turn. When you’re the one who doesn’t pick up, doesn’t reply, doesn’t explain, the world implodes. Her hurt becomes righteous indignation, and your silence, a personal betrayal. Suddenly, you’re the villain in a story you didn’t write. You’re made to feel guilty, selfish, unworthy. And yet, you understand. Or at least, you try to. Because if you don’t, she gets mad. 

You’re not stupid. You see the pattern, the game, the manipulation cloaked in pretty words. You know the imbalance is more than unfair, it’s toxic. But you hold on, clutching at the tiny string of hope that maybe this time will be different. Maybe she’ll see you. Maybe she’ll call. Maybe she’ll stop making you feel like an afterthought. 

But how long can you hold on? How many excuses can you stomach before the weight of her indifference crushes you? You wonder if love is supposed to feel this way, like walking on eggshells, like a one-sided battle for validation. Deep down, you know the answer. You’re just too afraid to admit it. 

And so, you sit there, resisting the pull to check your phone again. You tell yourself this is the last time you’ll let her silence hurt you. But even as you make the promise, you wonder if it’s one you’ll keep. After all, the heart rarely listens to reason. And yours, stubborn and bruised, still beats for her, despite everything.

Ah, Wacha Ikae Bwana ! Don’t wait to confirm the obvious with a great sense of discovery

@okelododdychitchats