The geometry of the bed is a lie, it holds only the shape of a departure.
I watched the light retreat from your skin, a slow tide pulling back
to expose the salt-crusted stones of a world without you.
There is a peculiar violence in a peaceful end,
the way the air refuses to shatter when the lungs stop their labor,
leaving me to inhabit the hollows you forgot to take with you.
God is a name I whispered into the hollow of your cooling throat,
not in prayer, but as a placeholder for the scream I held behind my teeth.
How strange to offer gratitude for the theft of one’s own heart,
to thank the North Wind for finally extinguishing the candle
simply because the wick had grown tired of the burning.
The mercy of death is a broken glass, it heals the wound by removing the limb.
Now the moors are just a distance to be crossed without a destination.
I am a weight dragging across a seafloor of soft, grey ash,
tethered to a ghost who has finally found her Shore.
The breathless war is over, what remains is the terrifying calm,
the realization that the horizon has folded its wings
and I am the only thing left moving in a landscape turned to stone.
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