It’s 2025

2024 was one hell of a year. 

It started with so much hope. I had plans, big plans, to leave certain things behind, and to be honest, I did. But it wasn’t all smooth sailing. The struggles came too, hard and fast, but somehow, God showed up every single time. 

I’m not the kind of person to stand in front of a church and give a testimony, not me. But today, I felt tempted. I’m writing this right here in church, and it’s probably the fifth time I’ve been here this whole year. One of my goals for 2024 was to go to church every Sunday. I tried, I really did. January was great, I was consistent. But then life happened, and somewhere along the way, I got lost. I try again in 2025

So now, I’m sitting at the back, on the right-hand side of the church. I’ve never sat here before, and I can’t help but notice how full it is today. It’s never been like this. Seeing so many people here, God’s children gathered under one roof, it makes me happy. This place feels alive, like a marketplace of blessings. And I’m here to claim mine, to carry me through 2025. 

I’m not writing a long list of goals this time. I’ve learned something about life, it doesn’t follow a formula. There’s no perfect plan. All I know is that the effort I’m going to put in this year will get me where I need to be. That’s it. Simple. 

I don’t have much to say, really. I’m just thankful. Thankful that I’m here, alive, and hopeful again. Thankful for a chance to start over. 

So goodbye, 2024. You were tough, you were beautiful, you were messy. But it’s time to move on. 

Here’s to 2025. Let’s go.

And this is my Prayer,

I know I messed up along the way
But God, just give me a chance to say
I am trouble, I am a f up
But give me another chance to make up

I’ve made mistakes, I won’t deny
But please, don’t let this be goodbye
I’m begging you, hear my plea
I know I can be better, just wait and see

I’ve stumbled and fallen, lost my way
But I’m asking for your grace today
I’ve let you down, I’ve let myself down
But I promise, I won’t wear this frown

I know I don’t deserve your love
But I’m hoping for a sign from above
To guide me back onto the right path
To escape this cycle of wrath

I know I’ve caused pain and hurt
But I’m willing to do the work
To make amends, to right my wrongs
To sing a new and hopeful song

I may be broken, I may be flawed
But I believe in the power of God
To grant me forgiveness, to show me the way
To a brighter and better day

I know I don’t deserve a second chance
But please, just give me one more dance
To prove that I can change and grow
To show that I can bloom and glow

I am a sinner, I am a saint
I am a puzzle, missing a paint
But with your help, I can be whole
With your guidance, I can reach my goal

So please, God, just give me a chance
To show that I can rise and dance
To show that I can mend my ways
And live out my remaining days

I know I messed up along the way
But God, just give me a chance to say
I am ready to face my fears
And dry up all these tears

I know I am a f up, I’ve been trouble
But I believe I can burst this bubble
With your grace, with your love
I know I can rise above

This is my prayer, my plea
To be the person you want me to be
To walk the path you’ve set for me
To live a life that’s pure and free

So please, God, just hear my cry
And give me a chance to try
To be the best version of me
To live a life that’s full and free

I know I don’t deserve it, I know I’m not perfect
But with your help, I know I can resurrect
My spirit, my soul, my heart
And make a fresh new start

So please, God, just give me a chance
To prove that I can advance
To a place of peace and light
To a future that’s bright

I know I messed up along the way
But God, just give me a chance to pray
To ask for forgiveness, to seek redemption
To find a path to salvation

I know I am a f up, I’ve caused trouble
But I believe I can burst this bubble
With your mercy, with your grace
I know I can find my place

So please, God, just give me a chance
To mend my ways, to make amends
To create a life that’s true
To become the person you always knew

I know I don’t deserve it, I know I’m not worth it
But with your love, I know I can unearth it
The strength, the courage, the will
To break free from this endless drill

So please, God, just give me a chance
To find my purpose, to enhance
My life, my soul, my being
To finally find that feeling

Of peace, of joy, of love
That only comes from above
So please, don’t turn away
Just give me another chance today.

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